Killing me softly…

When I first felt your hands I know not why I shuddered

My mind is cluttered with questions

Was it you or was it the touch that left me damaged?

I was the smile, apple of someone’s eyes

Life to someone, happiness to many.

Bright like sunshine, carelessly flowing with the flow.

You meant the world to me -

 thinking it would end without thee.

Everywhere I went your eyes followed me.

Thinking they were to protect me;

but now knowing why they followed me.

You would stroke my head in my lonely moments.

Caress my back; fondle my bosom, to ward of my depression.

You would talk of hope while you ruptured my soul.

 While you did it your eyes were always down

 Perhaps fearing your daughter’s inquisitive eye?

Every day you killed me.

Tore me from stern to stern.

Raped me of my aspirations and desires,

When I could have been so much more.

But the smiles are gone now.

I lay like a stone in the flowing water

Oblivious of the change around me.

The flowers in my garden are without fragrance

And the birds there shriek for help.

The pace of the world does not bother me anymore

Because the world around me seems so hideously dead.

Every day I get up from my sleep

Only to ask you

“Did you bring me to life only to kill me everyday?”